Do you really know how to enjoy yourself?
When was the last time you really enjoyed spending time with yourself?
Usually we are never comfortable being with ourselves. We are all the time with people, with noise. We identify ourselves with others, not with ourselves. We feel alone and scared if we are with ourselves! You were alone in your mother’s womb and that is your true nature. But what happened after that? You started thinking that you needed people to make you happy. You laughed with people, cried with them, talked to them, suffered because of them and what not. You don’t know how to celebrate with just yourself.
The moment you find yourself alone you start scrambling inside. Your inner chatter and your worries take over, and you start thinking of how to create noise - whom to call up and talk to or chat with on your computer! You are afraid of looking inwards, so you look outwards. When you start to meditate, you will slowly understand that you don’t need to depend on relationships to make you happy. You are enough unto yourself. When you cannot be in peace with yourself, you will remain at the periphery of your being, caught up in the so-called relationships.
You need to have a relationship with yourself first. When this is strong and steady, relating to others will become just incidental. Right now what needs to be at the periphery is seen as the core and what should be the core is treated like the periphery. You have to reverse the situation for which you have to turn your gaze inwards. To have a relationship with yourself, you need to have the courage to go behind your mind. You are ready to give appointments to everyone but not to yourself. You give appointments to others because it is ego-fulfilling. You don’t give an appointment to yourself because you are afraid that the truth might surface and you might not be able to take it! You are comfortable searching for bliss in the wrong places and complaining that it is eluding you. If you really want to find bliss, start spending more time with yourself. Go inward whenever you can. The more you can spend time with yourself, the more you can experience bliss! When you learn to be with yourself, you can commune with Existence.
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